{ musings

Subject musings, ok ramblings...
Posted Date: [23 Aug 2006 | Wednesday] - 12:39 AM

i'm in no way an expert on anything or better than anyone - but i have to say, the older i get the more intune i'm becoming with what i believe are some of the important things in life.

we watched - When The Levees Broke
http://www.hbo.com/docs/programs/whentheleveesbroke/synopsis.html

over the last two nights... wow - it really puts a perspective on things... honestly. people who lost every single thing they had, photos, memoirs, personal items, even thier family members and friends- who were truly alone out there... imagine that happend to you and you lost it all. think of how hoard it would be to struggle to get back to a normal life? you wouldn't take anything for granted... or would you?

recently there's been some (not involving me thankfully) slight drama with some people i know of and it all revolves around ego, want of attention, alcoholism and some other shit. don't get me wrong, i love to party, trust me... i would be a hypocrite if i said i never did any crazy shit years ago or even months ago... but point is, i don't make it my sole purpose in life.

drunk driving

if all you have to live for is party, drink and whatever after party, drink and whatever... what kind of life is that? LOL i know i sound insane but seriously....  how selfish are you in this life that all you want to do is that? you just lose yourself in the constant need to out-do your last thing, gaining a shallow reputation that sadly for you, will wear pretty thin rather quickly with people around you... and thats kind of fucked up - it's kind of like those people who lost it all in the flood execpt you've totally lost your purpose, what's important in life and who you are cos now you can't be trusted, become a burden and people only want you for when they want to 'party' and no other reason. congratulations, you've become a shell of a being...

liver disease

maybe it has something to do with age, and the fact that i was married once to someone who was just that  - a "drunk all the time - party all the time" person and have seen first hand what these people are like up close.  i have no place in my heart for people who are this needy, egotistical and destructive. my arms can only stretch so far... the people who want to embrace me back have already secured a special place in my heart.

brain damage

what's the point in just being an attention whore and putting yourself in danger and risk of all kinds of health problems night after night? i'm sure someone would say "living life is cool!" but seriously if you think about it... you're just slowly commiting suicide and letting down all the people around them. so saying that it only really affects that one person isnt really true... what that kind of pattern of behavior that tells me is that those people have a really shitty self esteem issue and are only fooling themselves they're having fun - wandering aimlessly with no tangleble goals, they probably feel as though they have nothing to contribute to society and so they act that way - and thats whats so sad about it...

i've passed the point of having to prove myself and my worth to these types of people, so honestly if i'm not "cool" for thinking they're so wonderfully silly and oh so crazy and wild.. then so be it...  i'll just sit there, roll my eyes back and deal with it like usual. cos oh yea, i forgot... when you have opinons like mine... after people are done berating me for "not letting people have fun with 'criticising them' ... they tell me that I am entitled to my opinions but they don't want to hear it from me!

i don't define being happy and having fun as destroying myself... not sure about some other people... and if they think i'm a jerk for having that kind of an opinion then they're probably not really my friend...

"so different, but so in love" - explodingdog.com

to me things that are important in life are things like love, good quality of life, strong bonds with family and those handful of friends who are there to catch you when you're falling but to also ream you out when you fuck up, hugging someone every day, laughing, staying positive, hoping for the best but being prepared for the worst, taking care of yourself, and working at what makes you happy... etc..

i dont know why i felt like going on and on today... but i'd really like to hear what you guys think...

what do you think is important in life?